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Hello livejournal.

I haven't posted here for ages!  But just a few days ago, i realized that having too much thoughts accumulating in your head isn't healthy- there should be an avenue to release it all out and livejournal is precisely that. 

tbc. :S

i was.

 Thank you, my Saviour.

I have never done these year-reflection posts before.


2010. Where do I start?


i vaguely remember the early events of 2010. HK trip, sch.. etc. Well i'm not gonna list events here- events have passed. gone. remembered?maybe. I just felt that my life was going downhill all the time. I speak not of issues like mugging or relationships, but mainly of my spirituality. Some people grow closer to God and become more spiritually mature with age, others like me grow more distant. And it sucked. I am deeply grateful for A Levels as it really exemplified my dependence on God for strength, but after it was over, spirituality subsided as well.

I can't keep starting every year telling myself that this year will be better- it's like running through a thicket of thorns with your eyes closed. On the surface, things really seem smooth-sailing, but i'm just sinking beneath the icy waters. The years have been getting worse, and it has to stop or i'm dead. I need God. This song pretty much sums it up...

Are you tired of chasing pretty rainbows?
Are you tired of spinning round and round?
Wrap up all those shattered dreams of your life
And at the feet of Jesus, lay them down.

Give them all, give them all, give them all to Jesus
Shattered dreams, wounded hearts, and broken toys.
Give them all, give them all, give them all to Jesus
And He will turn your sorrows into joy.

He never said you only see sunshine,
He never said there would be no rain.
He only promised a heart full of singing
About the very thing that once brought pain.

Matthew 11:28
“Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.”

I am heavy laden. I need rest. 

 
Flying off to London in a few hours time.

Interview at Merton College in Oxford on Sunday, St Anne's College on Monday. 2 interviews each!


Please pray for me :)

 it's a once-in-a-lifetime feeling.

it really is.

i believe in the 'greater good'.
i believe the ends do justify the means.

sorry.

 I wonder if anyone of you like to dream.


well recently, i've been using the formula again- yeah, i made a formula to lucid dream at will. It cured my recent insomnia, thankfully, and i must say, the dreams have been weird. last night i dreamt of econs tuition! LOL. i know this post is damn random, but i'm just fascinated with this formula and i really wonder how it works.. 

there's only one source of strength!!!!